stay or go?

I have four days to decide whether to renew my lease for September. Spoke to Doug in Toronto, who recently bought a 3-bedroom condo in Leslieville, and said I could stay with him for a couple of months if ever I moved there, which I am considering. I am wary, though, as I really am not sure I could live with anyone else at this point in time, and the friendship with Doug feels a bit strained at this point, and I suspect it would not survive cohabitation. I feel disconnected from the world, and simultaneously want and fear change. Part of me would like the idea of moving to Toronto, a place my family dislikes, as it would mean they'd visit me less often, which is appealing. But it is more expensive, and I probably couldn't afford to live alone there. Wish I had a bit more social capital, which would make relocation easier, barring more money.