dimanche 15 juin 2008
OCD maneuvers
Just returned to Mtl after several days in Ottawa, usually a very stressful experience owing to the exacerbation of my OCD which always accompanies a visit chez ma mere. But now I have a system: basically, I wore a pair of old shoes that need to be thrown out, and took my stuff in an old backback that can also be discarded, and upon my return, I wash all my identification, bank card, keys, toothbrush, etc, chuck the shoes and bag, shower, and re-enter the clean zone of my normal life. I've been back 2 days, and have yet to do so, as it is always good to have a couple of days in the so-called 'dirty zone', when I am hardly as vigilant about keeping germ-free, when I return home. Went to a couple of bathouses, and didn't have to worry about showering thoroughly at the end (I instead took a shower that a normal person would take: 5 minutes or so) . The only drawback is that when I enter my apartment, I have to remain in the corner by the door, take off all my clothes, leave them in a pile in the corner, put on flipflops to cover my 'dirty' feet, and immediately jump into the shower, after which I can freely enter the 'clean zone' of the rest of my apartment, sort of a separate dimension, and sleep in my 'clean' bed. When I get up, I remain 'clean' until I reach the corner, get dressed, and leave, always careful to touch the interior doorknobs in specific spots only. I will leave the clothes in the corner, until I can launder them, and then will 'decontaminate' that corner. Unfortunately, after I reenter the 'clean zone', my stress levels also increase. But that is the burden I must bear.
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